My Worst Day

It's late and i just couldnt force my eyes to sleep. (Sigh) Many things have changed lately and maybe i was, or i am da only who doesnt want to understand things. How could i possibly know dat my non-stop mouth would actually bored someone? Not to da one person that i care da most. I really dunno how to put these into words. It's hard to explain things. But i guess it's easier for me to put it in writing. It's a good teraphy for me.

Sometimes, we just dunt realize how things have changed. I know da whole concept of 'life is all about changes' thing. And i know da best solution to it, is dat u have to adapt wit those changes. But then again, its easier said than done rite? I have some issues with myself rite now. Tonight to be exact.

Let me make it simple and straight. I have nothing to do at home. I do some stupid, silly chores. I dun go to work.(not yet!) I dunt have researches to be done. I dunt have to punch card. I dunt have to spend long hours at the office. And i dunt get tired easily after da long journey to reach home. And i dunt have friends around me to talk to. So, when da one person dat i care da most called me, i tend to spill things about my stupid chores, my boring days at home, my stupid, nonsense conversations wit my good old girlfriends, my meals, my silly dreams and my stupid believe dat if my left eyes blinkin, something bad will happen and etc, etc. And when i talk, story-mory about my pathetic days that ive gone through, i just dunt expect dat one person to be less than interested to listen. Wut more to give some sarcastic comments or remarks against me.

I just dunt get it. I know, i may be some useless, pathetic gal who have nothing better to do. And i dunt have any important issues to talk to. Im just no one. But at least, can u please be more considerate? Can u at least listen to what i'm saying. I may sound like demanding too much. But, NO! I dunt demand anything. Its just dat, u are da only one person for me to talk to. For me to share my life with. My days and nites. My so-called life. I am sorry if u feel like its a burden for u....I am sorry for everythin.

I duno why all of a sudden i get too emotional. Too absorb wit negativiy. A friend told me it was nothing. Da situation pushed me to da peak. To feel dis bad. To feel dis sad. I keep reminding myself dat I just need to hold on to dat love. Yes, im still holdin on to it..No matter what...........Even on da worst days.

Oh, God! Please listen to all my silent prayers. Today is definitely one of da worst days.. =(

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing....

It has been a month since i got back from Oman. Gosh, time flies rite? =| Rite now, i am in my hometown. Da city with lots of stars. Hehe. And i was really busy and that's da main reason why i havent posted nythn here. (not that there are many who wants to read. but wuteva! its my blog nyway..) I am proud to say that i am da driver of da house. who drives da car like a mad driver to here and there (as accordin to my mum!), buyin stuffs, fetchin my baby sista and my bro and my mum and my friends and da list can goes on and on and on.. I am also the maid of the house. Who needs to lipat kain, angkat kain, basuh kain, susun kain dan yang seangkatan dengannya. And it is also my job to list down and check my parents' schedule. It's a hectic life you know? But i love doin it.

By the way, there's nothin much to update. Really..Except for the part that i got a job now. And i have to like go for a ten-days-course in Kemaman before i know where im gona be posted. It'l be a nightmare i know. I heard dat we have to run for 2.4km every mornin for EVERYDAY! And it's definitely sumthing dat im not looking forward to. Sigh.. Apart from dat, im thrilled to go to work. This will be my first time working and i pray a lot dat i'l be doin great! Let's just pray dat im gona be posted in Putrajaya. Even if it in Ministry of Agriculture, ill accept it. I swear!

And there will be lots of things dat i need to do after dat. Such as moving out, movin in and movin on. I need to adapt with many things with da current changes. I hope it will be for da better...huh... And so they say... Life is all about changes.. It feels weird not havin to see ur friends everyday, not to hang out wit them (tho' they constantly annoy you). It's like blessings in disguise.... (sorry girls! but it is true. I still love u guys tho.. =))Sometimes there are certain people that u just hate to see but u still cant resist to see them. And it feels more weird when u see your friends are all working! And they work like hell. ( i still need to adapt with this)...

As for my life, i just dunno wut to expect. Some say like this. Some say like dat..I just dunno. For da time being,i guess wut i need to do is still... Sitting, Waiting, Wishing....... =|